The other day, I cried. Hard. Like, the ugly cry. Think Kim Kardashian vibes. All the external stressors of my life came to an excruciating head. And, I let it all loose in the privacy of my car. Runny nose, sniffling, the whooping noise: the works. It was an unhinged moment for me. But, it was well-needed.
I’m the type of person who “appears” to have it all together. I attempt to continue to engage in this juggling act that we call life. Balancing family, self-care, work, relationships, faith, passions, service, finances and facing all of the madness within our current societal state can be maddening. It never fails, as soon as you devote more time to one priority, the remaining to-do items are placed on the back burner, neglected. As result, things start to fall apart, thing become unstable and things eventually fall through the cracks.
I’ve officially come to terms with the notion that the secret to life is balance. Don’t peg yourself as the person that can “do it all”. Please don’t. Don’t jeopardize your happiness just to check another task off your task list. Although I can’t tell you the secret to obtaining balance, as I am still learning, I can advise that you can combat its ability to consume you, while making you feel guilty and inadequate.
The only solution I can suggest is to ask for help. Never be too proud to allow others to assist in helping you on a regular basis. We all need someone to give us that little break so we won’t reach the tipping point. Pride is a helluvah drug, trust me. It’s addicting. But, that shit has to be set to the side in order for you to achieve what you truly deserve. Compromise with yourself, take a step back and call in for that assist. It’ll be well worth it.
My journey is still ongoing in this ultimate quest for balance. Who knows if it will ever be fully achieved! I don’t have all the answers. And, I’m pretty sure there will be more emotional crying-in-my-car days, but I am up for the challenge. All I can do is positively affirm my strength while immersing myself in the essence of grace, favor and prayer. God has the final say, and he will sustain me. Until next time…
“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.”